Thoughts

Dark is the night,

How I wish I could see the light,

In my heart I will fight,

Something feels not right.

Though I feel a gleam,

I wish this was all a dream,

All I want to do is scream.

I hate the fall of tears at night,

Why am I even in this fight?,

The dark is all I know,

All it does is grow grow grow.

I see you standing there,

I know for a fact you don't care,

You are not aware,

Of this Nightmare.

Fate brought me here,

For me to let go of my fear,

One day soon I will go,

To a place you won't even know.

You may think you are strong,

My dear you are very wrong,

For you are nothing without me,

Someday soon You will see,

You are the one that needs me.

A Toddler & His Brother

Having a toddler Dylen 2 years and Kellan a 6 month old baby is not all peaches and cream. Every second of the day is run run run(kinda like the road runner). I really wonder where Dylen gets all his energy from because I NEED some baby! By the time the day ends I am wiped out but mommy's' work is never done. Round a clock job *laughs*

Baby D

Dylen is at the stage where he is so curious about everything and anything. Double duty on him *grinning* Picking up new words really fast. Got to be so careful of what we say around him. He watches my every move just as I watch his every move. A noisy and active toddler is a happy toddler BUT my sweetheart, mommy does need to rest *laughing* He loves to cuddle and give me cheeky grins. Sneaky lil fella. Mischievous in his own little way but which toddler isn't.

 He gets super excited when his favorite cartoon comes on Blaze and The Monster Machines. He just has to make the sound effects *chuckles* Everyday is a new day with him and his brother.

Baby K

His brother on the other hand, Kellan the wee bundle of joy, is so much different. Well, for now that is. All smiles and laughter. Jolly lil munchkin. Only time will tell how he will turn out. Most of the time Kellan is sleeping or laughing. I wonder what he is thinking of tho to just have that smile on his face. A smile that will make all your troubles go away.

From the way I see it Kellan will be more mellow than his big brother Dylen. At least I hope so. But then again, his big brother does need a wing man for his missions. Looking at these two I know in my heart that there is a bond like no other. After all, mommy knows :) 

A brothers' love is like no other,

All the hugs and kisses from my big brother,

May little hearts always beat,

May we brothers remain sweet.

For the day has come to an end,

May you forever be my friend,

To call you my brother,

I love you and cherish you forever.

Thus, I have to come to an end because it is sleepy time for both my lil man. 

Until next time. Muax.

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Two Hearts, One Beat

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Together forever is what we all want. The "You&Me". Not every relationship are rainbows and butterflies BUT for these two it actually is. All it takes is Faith, Trust & a Little Pixie Dust ~ Peter Pan.

I have never met a couple like these two (age wise I mean) for their age they actually know how to make it work. So, I asked them (mini interview) "How do you both do it?" . They said "simple, just compromise".  We rarely hear that this these day and age.

I guess it is all about give and take. No one sided ways, egos pushed aside. Being fair is the Name of Love. Loving  each others hobbies is also part of their way. He loves to hit the gym and so does she (Gym buddies right there..peeps). She loves to bake and he loves eating her cakes (ONLY the healthy ones). They have their date night every Friday as they both have their classes and work going on. Video calls every night before they sleep..Wow!

They met on Instagram, I believe this is what we call "New Age". Back in the day,we oldies met without social media *laughs* she played hard to get (of course that is what we do). In the end, they just clicked. Still, a long road ahead for them but looking at them, you just know they're going to go far :)

In her eyes he sees,
A love as deep as the sea,
In her heart she prays,
For their love to stay.

In his heart he knows,
His love for her grows,
In his arms she lays,
That is where she will stay.

For both have come to show,
A love like theirs everyone knows,
Both mind and heart as one,
True love are yours and mine.

Until next time..Peace! Muax..

Blog Baby Momma

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The life of a stay home do everything I can to make ends meet mummy :) I write about anything & every thing.Writing is my passion. Blogging is my mission now(GUNG HO!) I just started this blog so it is up and coming. A happy multi-tasking mom.

The only time blogging gets done is when my little ones are all tucked in, dreaming of candy canes & sugar plums *giggles* I do hope those reading this will enjoy or maybe not, I don't know OR some can even relate.. who knows?.. after all we are who we are.

If there are those that can relate.. maybe just maybe we can trait mummy secrets *smiles* or any other stories to just unwind. I am no professional advisor or anything BUT I do know for a fact that a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen too is what WE ALL NEED.

Much..much.. more to be writen but mom duties are beckoning..until next time round.. stay tuned!.

This is going to be a Dual Language Blog *laughs* 

Another day another life is what I sometimes wished I had, but never regretting having my kids. If only I could change just a little bit of this & that.

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BROOKLYN BYTES

Salam ALL!

For those of you with a crazy sweet tooth macam saya ni betul gile sangat dengan kek, cookies, cupcakes semua. Do contact this FANTASTIC MABELOS baker ni! Semua hand painted and hand crafted..Fuyoooh! Hebat gile, Rasa pun memamg sedap sangat!

Semua air tangan sendiri nih.. BROOKLYN BYTES khas untuk ALL OCCASIONS. The baker is from The United States :) so memang korang semua taw la ye camne rasa orang luar negara buat kek-kek ni..huhuhu. Focus dia sekarang ni kat belah PUCHONG & KL. Jadi, orang-orang belah Selangor tu ley la kol tuk order ;)

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Until Next Time..Ta for now.. Muax.

I Miss You Dad.

Night time has fallen upon us once again. Sadness comes to heart. The day has gone, the time for wondering thoughts is nigh. Sleep does not beckon this time. Wandering through the dark hall wondering who or what will come in the dark. I sit silently, "Are you here Daddy?, "I miss you very much". You come to me in my dreams but dreams always have to end. It makes the missing more difficult to cope with.

No one knows the pain inside. Everyone says time heals everything. Well, it does not. I still am not accepting that you are gone. So, I sit everyday in the dark talking to you because I know you are here with me. It gives me comfort and some joy. Taken too soon.

I remember everything we did together and everything you said. All those moments are forever embedded in my heart & soul. We argued a lot but in the end we laughed and smiled. Whenever, I look back I see your smile. How you used to walk me to school and wait for me. Now, I just wait for the day we will meet again.

Shadows in the dark portrays,
A gleam of hope still remains,
Though darkness is creeping in,
A light shines within.

Healing wounds still hurting,
Ever wondering.
Laughter in a distance,
Tears in the heart,
Why did we have to part?.

Difficult to let go,
No one to show,
Let me know the way to go.

Simple Ways To Cope.

Coping With The Loss Of A Parent

Death comes to us all, be it young or old without any warning most of the time. Many will say “time will heal all wounds” but through my experience it does not. I loss my dad to cancer on September 5^th 2013. It was the darkest day of my life. Up to this day I still cannot overcome but I would like to share some ways that has helped me cope with my loss and I do hope it will help with yours.

1)      Take all the time you need.

Do not worry about what others say. Most will always say “it is time you let go” it is easier said than done. For those that have not gone through this they will not really understand you and your heart. You are the only one that knows when you are really ready to let it. We all have different perceptions. Do not get angry when you hear those words, just smile and nod. After all, they do care, they just do not know what you are feeling.

2)      Cry (let it all out).

A good cry never did any harm! Let it all out. Bawl if you want to (that is one way I cope). After a good cry you will feel much better. Talk to them while u cry (even if they are no longer here) and no you are not crazy. Crying helps you sleep at least that is what I learned.

3)      Keep busy.

Once you are done with everything else, always keep yourself busy. Try reading, writing taking a walk, watch TV and etc. once you keep yourself busy you tend to feel a little relief. For me, I write. I write all my feelings and pain down. It helps a lot. 

4)      Talk about it.

Always talk about it. Never keep it bottled in. bottled up feelings will only lead to more heartache. Talk to friends or family member whom have gone through this or support groups. Believe me this is amazing closure. Up to this day I still talk about my loss and well, I am writing about it for you to read.

5)      Eat.

Most importantly, eat even though you feel depressed and sad always remember to eat and keep yourself healthy. Your family has already gone through a loss do not let them lose you too. If you feel that you do not have the mood to do so, even a cookie will help.

I do hope this will help those out there to cope. If any of you have other ways or opinions on this topic. Please feel free to comment below. Until next time.

Tale of Tails.

Peachy@Raja Kecik also known as PMB “Peachy Manja Boy”

This fur baby was found on a porch and he refused to leave when he was just a kittenL small and skinny. Peachy is now 2 and a half years old and has put on much weight since then! He is now 6kgs. Wow! Peachy good for you.

Peachy is a fussy cat..*laughs* he only eats imported wet and dry food! Such a fussy pot but he is loved nonetheless J he is a very playful kitty, most happy when he is exploring (kinda like Dora) the outdoors climbing roofs and trees or relaxing. He is not too happy when he has to have his weekly bath along with his fortnightly visit to the groomers..hihihi.

Apparently, Peachy does not like other dogs or cats coming to the front of the house. He once attacked a dog! Bit the dog’s hind legs *gasping* Peachy the street fighter.  I guess he is just protecting/defending his Kingdom J the only thing that scares Peachy is the sound of the vacuum cleaner and hairdryer *laughing*. Can you imagine the only way for the strays to fight back is to carry a hairdryer or push around a vacuum cleaner? Hahahahahahahahaha what a sight that would be!

Peachy lost his best friend and Mentor Jethro (neighbour’s cat) in October 2017  poor Peachy fell so ill. He did not eat at all. He fell into cat depression I guess L. Peachy was hospitalised for a few weeks, poor kitty. He was on a double dose of antibiotics via drips. Underwent treatment forliver flushing because he also had jaundice. When he was discharged he had to be fed by syringe for 2 weeks because he still did not want to eat (even cats feel pain when losing a friend). He is now well and healthy again. Thanks to the love and caring of his human momma.

Peachy is back to his old ways again.

Thank You Al.

Tribute for my friend Al.

Hey ALL,

This short entry sebenarny khas untuk my friend Al (Fyda Adim). I want to say THANK YOU so much kerana Al sudi menolong saya start-up blog ni. Full of kesabaran Al menolong saya. Macam-macam soalan Tanya kat Al ni dia tak sekali pun marah. Bersyukur dapat kawan dengan dia. Dari zaman skola kawan tapi sekarang makin rapat!. Selalu bagi saya Encouragement buat macam buat macam tu J happy sangat. Dia pun fellow blogger(fyda-adim.blogspot.com), penulis cerpen. Wah! Bangga sangat ni saya to call her MY FRIEND J

Dah-dah tak nak menulis panjang sangat ni. Once again THANK YOU AL! J

Sehiris HatiKu

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Walaupun jauh dari pandangan, namun kau tetap di dalam hati.

Setiap saat kau sentiasa dirindui.

Kepulanganmu sentiasa ditunggu-tunggu.

Masa bersamamu sentiasa dihargai.

Kau adalah hatiku. Tiada sesiapa yang boleh mengambil tempatmu.

Kau adalah mataku dan jiwaku.

Kau membuat aku tersenyum, kau membuatku menangis.

Ku merindui senyuman dan pelukanmu.

Wajahmu menghantuiku.

Hanya masa yang boleh memulangkan dirimu kepadaku.

Pancake/Flapjack

Yang berminat masak2 tuk keluarga ni. Ramai sekarang buat pancake tau flapjack pakai ready made ni. Cuba jangan pakai ready made rasa lagi sedap berlemak lagi. Suami dan anak2 sy ni suka sangat. Habis licin!

RESIPI PANCAKE (BUATAN SENDIRI).

Bahan-bahan.

3 Cups Tepung Gandum

3 Biji Telur (Kuning je)

2 Cups Susu Cair (Boleh pakai Susu Dutch Lady ATAU susu  tin  Carnation 

4 Batang pisang (OPTIONAL)(MASH SIKIT)
(KALAU NAK ADD CHOC CHIP PUN BOLEH. LAGI SEDAP!)
                                               
 Garam (SECUBIT)   

 Mentega(MASA NAK MASAK JE)

 1 sudu teh Baking powder
                                               
1 sudu teh vanilla essense

CARA-CARA.

1. Campurkan semua bahan sekali. Pastikan mix sedikit pekat JANGAN cair sangat.

2. Pakai Non stick pan (Low Heat)

3. Mentega 1/2 sudu teh bila dh cair, tuang satu sudu sup (YANG BESAR Yang SLALU PAKAI TUK MASAK SUP/KARI) mix pancake.

4. Tutup 2 minit pastu buka flip over pancake tutup balik 2 minit lagi sampai Golden brown.

5. Dah siap semua Hidang dengan Madu dan Mentega.

SELAMAT MENCUBA :)

Daddy

Waktu malam telah jatuh ke atas kita sekali lagi. Kesedihan datang ke hati. Hari telah berlalu, masa untuk berfikir sudah dekat. Tidur tidak menggoda masa ini. Saya duduk dengan senyap, "Adakah anda di sini?," Saya sangat merindui anda. Anda datang kepada saya dalam mimpi saya tetapi mimpi sentiasa berakhir, menjadikannya lebih suka.

Tiada siapa yang tahu kesakitan di dalamnya. Semua orang mengatakan masa menyembuhkan segala-galanya. Nah, ia tidak. Saya masih tidak menerima bahawa ayah saya hilang. Jadi, saya duduk setiap hari dalam gelap bercakap dengannya kerana saya tahu dia ada bersama saya. Ia memberikan saya keselesaan dan kegembiraan. Diambil terlalu lama.

Saya ingat semua yang kami buat bersama dan semua yang anda katakan. Kesemua detik-detik ini tertanam di hati & jiwa saya.

Kisah Buatan Candy Kelapa

Hai ALL,

Teringin sangat minggu lepas nak buat Candy kelapa! Semangat pi beli barang semua. Excited sangat bila sampai rumah dah sedia barang-barang pastu baru find out dah beli susu pekat lain pulak..hihihi..

Beli krimer Bandung!! hahaha.. dah la penat pun jalan jalan cari barang, takpe la buat je.. So mula start preparations. Last tengok kluar lagi sedap..huhuhu..

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Manis wangi lagi takya nak adding vanilla essense dengan koloring. Dapat juga orang pesan order-order tuk Candy bandung sy ni :)

RESIPI CANDY KELAPA BANDUNG.

3 cup kelapa parut muda

2 cup gula halus(senang nak cair)

1/2 sudu mentega (sudu makan ye)

2 cup Krimer manis Bandung

CARA-CARA.

1.Panas kan non stick pan (slow heat), masuk kelapa dulu (kejap je bagi kering sikit).

2. Keluarkan kelapa letak tepi.

3. Masih slow heat, masukkan mentega dan gula gaul sampai cair. 

    Bila semua dah cair baru masuk kelapa (Mix all well)

4. Masukkan Krimer. Gaul semua sampai sebati dan nampak kering. (lebih kurang 20 min) (KEEP          STIRING LAW TAK HANGUS)
5. Bila dh nampak macam dah jadi ketul, ambil keluar dan masuk kat pinggang pirex taw kek tin.            Tekan bagi leper sikit. Letak tepi untuk cooling (15 min). Lepas 15 min potong kuib jangan ambil       keluar dulu ye. 

6.  Masuk dalam peti ais bawah ye untuk 4 jam. Lepas 4 jam, dah boleh hidang. (Baki boleh simpan        3 ke 4 hari dalam peti ais.

(APA2 PERTANYAAN BOLEH EMAIL SAYA ) 
                                                        

ENJOY!